WE ARE HOME!!!!!
Its so good to be back home. And Treasure was so happy to see her little sister (and mommy and daddy)!
Lizzy is doing great, just a little sore. She was so glad to get back home. And she stepped out of the car and went immediately next door where there was a birthday party going on. She was blowing bubbles and squirting anyone and everyone she could with a water gun! It is amazing how resilient kiddos are.
I will post more in the next few days about the battle that lies ahead. The doctor told us that on a 1-10 intensity scale, the chemo treatments that Lizzy just completed in April was a 2 or 3. He said the chemo journey we are about to start is a 7 or 8. This time will also include radiation, something we didn’t have to deal with last time. So, we will be enlisting all of our prayer warrior friends to come before God on Lizzy’s behalf. We will take this one day at a time. And God will provide.
In addition to praying for healing for Lizzy, please also pray for her emotional processing of what’s going on. Let me give you a story to illustrate why we make that specific prayer request.
On Tuesday at the clinic, after we had been told the cancer was back and Lizzy was going to have another surgery and more chemo, it was finally time to come home. Before we left the clinic, Lizzy had to go potty. I walked her to the potty and waited outside. After she went, she started washing her hands and I thought I heard her crying. So I opened the door and said “Lizzy, are you ok?” She looked at me, tears streaming down her face, and said “I know why the yucky came back” ( yucky is her term for the cancer). So I said “why?”
She looked down, like she was ashamed, and said “ Because I don’t always wash my hands after I go potty so that’s why the yucky came back”. I pulled her close, gave her a big hug, and through my own tears just kept saying to her “It’s not your fault, it’s not your fault, it’s not your fault “.
So, we know she is trying to process everything and trying to come up with an answer to that age-old question – “Why?”
The quest to understand Why is as old as the human race itself. Ever since sin entered the world, bad things have happened to people and we ask “Why?” Even at 4 years old, we ask “Why?”
From Augustine to C.S. Lewis, theologians have written volumes and volumes on this subject. And I am certainly no theologian. But what I do know is this – we live in a fallen (sinful) world, and because of that, bad things happen. The only place where bad things won’t happen is Heaven. So until we get there, bad things are going to happen. And it sucks. And it hurts. And it is hard. And it is dark. And sometimes it hurts so bad you can’t breathe. And you cry and you cry until you think you can’t cry anymore, and then you cry some more. That’s just the way it is this side of Heaven.
But for those of us who believe in Jesus Christ as our Savior, we know a better day and a better place is coming. A place where there are no more tears. There are no more hurts. There is no more cancer. There is only light and not darkness. A place where we will be fulfilled and healed and joyful as we worship all the time.
I can’t wait!